Love Letters, excerpt: September 22, 2015

From him

“Now these thoughts are haunting me

Of how complete I used to be

And in these times that we’re apart

I’ll hear this song that breaks my heart

And think of you

And I think of you

And think of you

and think of you

And I do”

I love this song — because I think of you. And I do. Everything I see and everything I do reminds me of you. Kirby I am just looking for a way to be together and I know I will figure it out. Sometimes in the day today — I had to stop myself from thinking about you because I thought I would get too sad.

I can tell myself that I have a life and I have to do this and I have to do that and then I think of you I do. I am foolish for feeling this way, no. Sometimes I look to my right and I see you like when we were walking together up Mulberry street and ‘Bailando’ is playing in my head and I can feel you — I can see your eyes look at me. I can see you forever and I think why is this person in love with me, what could she possibly see in me. I just laugh.

How could going to a church and lighting candles make want to be with you forever? How could walking into a shoe store make me want to kiss you? How could picking up even more flowers make me want to want to watch you try and find a vase for them? How could staring at your bookcase make me want to hold your hand? These are things I thought of today and I can’t imagine why we didn’t find each other sooner. Well, it really doesn’t matter at all. I just get over how great we are together and I so very happy about it.

I close my eyes and I can see us in bed together and it’s just hard to imaging I good I feel. I know we will be together soon because it’s something we both want. So I have never felt this way and I am kind of reeling in it — it’s such a good feeling. Holy cow — it’s Kirby. My brother is here and we have to drive to Reno to see some people about the future of the business and I am determined to work things out so I can see you more. As a practical matter, the future is simple. It includes you. It just does.

I know I am rambling some here but I am just saying that I am planning on ways to spend more time with you. I know that we are both in love and that is incredibly powerful. That energy is very strong.

So, I will go now and look for your email. Nobody knows how we feel about each other — nobody could possibly know this profound thing. I love you dearest Kirby.

“And think of you

And I think of you

And think of you

and think of you

And I do”

Brennan